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I honestly do not wish to sleep
Maybe I just fell in too deep
I know she would just be waiting in my dreams
Waiting to hear all of my screams
As I cry out to her
I want what we once were
But I know that will never again be
I keep saying "If only I could make her see..."
Maybe I just fell in too deep
I know she would just be waiting in my dreams
Waiting to hear all of my screams
As I cry out to her
I want what we once were
But I know that will never again be
I keep saying "If only I could make her see..."
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Time written: Sunday, December 4, 2011 4:34 AM
Written about who?: Roxie
I'm still awake thinking about her and everything we have been through. I truly do love her but I just want her to find happiness. If that happiness comes from someone else and not me then so be it. It's going to kill me inside to see her with Kaytie (also known as "Edward".. As Roxie put it Kaytie is Roxie's "Edward". I must be Jacob then...) but if that is what makes Roxie happy then I'll be okay. I will find some way to get through the pain.
Roxie has no idea how much she means to me and I doubt very seriously that she ever will. Even writing this brings tears to my eyes because I know that I royally messed up and I will never get a chance with the most perfect girl I know. No one is perfect by any means but in my eyes Roxie is perfect.
I know I continue to mess up with her. I guess I just don't know what to do with myself. I've never been in love like this before. I thought I was once... but now I know what true love is. And it kills me because I completely messed up and I can't fix it.
Nothing I say and nothing I do will ever fix what I have broken. I guess I need to just accept the fact that she is gone. I can't get her back. At least not the way I wish. I love her so much and sometimes loving someone means giving them up so they can be happy.
"Since I love her then I'll set her free. If she comes back then it's meant to be." - Gone Away by G-Whyte and Grim
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I'm sorry for the long description. I kinda went on a lil rant / discovery thing there.
Time written: Sunday, December 4, 2011 4:34 AM
Written about who?: Roxie
I'm still awake thinking about her and everything we have been through. I truly do love her but I just want her to find happiness. If that happiness comes from someone else and not me then so be it. It's going to kill me inside to see her with Kaytie (also known as "Edward".. As Roxie put it Kaytie is Roxie's "Edward". I must be Jacob then...) but if that is what makes Roxie happy then I'll be okay. I will find some way to get through the pain.
Roxie has no idea how much she means to me and I doubt very seriously that she ever will. Even writing this brings tears to my eyes because I know that I royally messed up and I will never get a chance with the most perfect girl I know. No one is perfect by any means but in my eyes Roxie is perfect.
I know I continue to mess up with her. I guess I just don't know what to do with myself. I've never been in love like this before. I thought I was once... but now I know what true love is. And it kills me because I completely messed up and I can't fix it.
Nothing I say and nothing I do will ever fix what I have broken. I guess I need to just accept the fact that she is gone. I can't get her back. At least not the way I wish. I love her so much and sometimes loving someone means giving them up so they can be happy.
"Since I love her then I'll set her free. If she comes back then it's meant to be." - Gone Away by G-Whyte and Grim
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I'm sorry for the long description. I kinda went on a lil rant / discovery thing there.
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I fell for my Bella, but I was the Jacob to her many Edwards... The one she came to in times of sorrow, but, she didn't love me the way I loved her, and she never will, but she just cant see how much it hurts when shes with another girl... It sux, but it will get easier and easier as time moves on... Thank you for finally putting into words what I have been feeling for the past 3 months now.
But, honey, you will find YOUR Bella someday...
But, honey, you will find YOUR Bella someday...